YOUR DAY WITH BAI

Long time no chat. So, let’s get right into it. I’ve been basically dead set on getting my mind, life, career, hobbies, and goals in line before continuing to post which is totally not why I began this blog in the first place. I wanted to start something that showed the more human side of me than all the “perfect” pictures shown on Instagram. The media has given us a great chance to portray only the very best version of ourselves even when it only leaves us comparing ourselves to others, sad if our posts don’t receive enough likes, and wondering why no one commented how pretty we are. Truthfully, we know none of these things matter, so why does it haunt us? The worry of not living up to a stranger’s expectations of you is something that shouldn’t even cross your mind. They don’t know you. Or your job. Or your battles. Or the love you give. Or the way you like your coffee. Or your favorite song. So why is it that someone who knows nothing significant about you holds so much power over your life? If you can’t yet tell, I’m talking to myself. I have made a lot of life choices lately making me wonder if any decisions are even right. However, I believe in divine timing. Even if I make mistakes Even when I make mistakes, I know at the end of every day, things will consistently turn out the way they are meant to. So, here are some life updates that involve no explanation because I don’t owe any explanations to anyone except myself. I quit United Airlines. Stevie and I moved back home to Florida. We renovated a house and turned it into an Airbnb. I started a new job I hated and quit that too. Remembered I still had a good bit of people in my corner, even if I felt alone. I became a head volleyball coach for two teams – twelve- and sixteen-year-olds. I actually love coaching, so here’s to finding out if I’m any good at it. I snowboarded for the first time ever and wasn’t awful at it. A great friend from college, Lex, rescued a perfect puppy who is now ours and waking us up at 6am daily. I’ve lost a couple of friends and reunited with friends who make me feel like me again. My best friend got engaged. I started a new book which is something I haven’t done in a while. Finally picked up the pen again to write some poetry (and this). I turned 23 which doesn’t seem any different than 22 so far, but we’ll see how it goes. I’ve reconnected with family. I got two new tattoos. A lot of other things I have probably forgot over the past few months, but here I am. Still stuck in this place of trying to get my mind, life, career, hobbies, and goals in line. Truth is, I’ve talked with one too many friends finding themselves in the same exact situation. We’re in our 20’s and it’s okay to feel stuck. But, the only way out is through so keep pushing. If you’re feeling lost and want to chat or possibly give me any tips, please feel free to send anything my way. See ya next week 🙂 Promise!